How sick of it I am........

Every time I hear anything about Jehovah's Witnesses (from non-Jehovah's Witnesses) it is something that is so untrue or misunderstood. It makes me sick. I just saw a blog from someone who was saying that JW kids are not allowed to talk to non-JW kids. HELLO!! They are in school with non-JWs all the time. My parents didn't let me spend too much time with non-JW friends because they didn't live by the same standards that my parents expected of me, and peer pressure is huge when you are a teenager. You are not as able to make good decisions. And what happened to all my school friends. Let's see. My best friend from high school got pregnant when we were Juniors and had to drop out. She is now raising her daughter on her own with the father no where to be found. Another friend got pregnant and married the guy, but he is very abusive. I had one good friend who started doing cocain, married an extremely abusive guy, had two kids with him, divorced him, gave up her kids (as did he) and now her mom is raising the children.....but she is raising them as Jehovah's Witnesses. Her daughter was never JW. I know a lot of the people I knew from high school are now drug addicts. If my parents had let me spend a lot of time with them, I could have very well ended up like them. I am happily married (for over 9 years) and have a 4 yr old & a 2 yr old, AND I am raising them as JWs. Have I been worse off for it. No. While everyone else is focused on the economy and how they will by Christmas presents for their kids/family/friends, I'm not. The failing economy and the strange weather was told to us as a sign of the time of the end years ago. Jehovah's Witnesses are not bad. We are not perfect. People love to focus on our mistakes, but we are imperfect humans. All of those friends from school I mentioned were Catholic, but no one would focus on that. I had never even noticed until thinking about it just now. People also like to look at how strict the Witnesses are and how much the door to door work annoys them. Maybe they should look at all the Witnesses beliefs and how they come straight from the Bible. Everyone thinks we just believe what the WT says, but they show us from the Bible. We have always looked at the Bible first and foremost. But if people would admit that, it would be one less bad thing for them to say about Witnesses. Now days people don't want 'The Truth' in a religion, they want a religion that will condone the way they want to live, but if you're living an immoral life and have no desire to change then you don't have God's approval.

Smart?

Sometimes I think I should just have blogspot on all the time during the day. I have these random thoughts that I want to put down, but I don't. Anyway, this will be short. I really just want to go to bed. Kids are great. Aiden still doesn't want to have anything to do with potty training. Drives me nuts, because by the time Austin was his age I had him completely potty trained. Night and all. Oh well, so goes life. The other day I was hanging out with my bro and sis and a good friend (Rick), and we were discussing life......death and all. Kinda a buzzed conversation (Curt always has a bottle of Whiskey to share). Anyway, we had been talking about all kinds of things earlier and then that conversation, and Rick leans over to me while everyone else was talking and says "You know, you are REALLY smart!" (in a serious way. You know when Rick's not being serious). Made me feel good. Sometimes I start to hate myself. I wish I liked myself a little more, but I don't. It's just nice to have someone else tell you.....I don't know.......just something good about yourself. Oh well, there you go. Someday I'm gonna have to do a photoblog, but I'm trying to save electricity, so I don't turn the computer on much. BUT!!!!........I willl......someday........not that anyone reads this nonsense. :)

KIDS!!!!

My whole thought.....my whole life is about my kids. Everything in my life involves my kids. I love them to death......yet I get so frustrated with them. I have really been trying to change that. Yes, kids are frustrating, but I want my kids to be kids and to know how much I really love them and enjoy being around them.

Once you have children, you almost feel crazy. I love them. Every thought I have of them is love.....but they are frustrating. Austin just pushes and pushes.......and Aiden has hit the terrible twos full force. But, every time I see a movie where a parent is about to lose their child, I can't help but cry. I wish I had some sort of social life now, but I don't. I stay home and it feel like "deal with the kids", but I have been trying to see it as being able to spend time with my kids before they go to school. I want to make an impression on them before the rest of the world can. That is what my parents did with me. I don't think it worked on the rest of my siblings, but it worked on me. I want to do all I can do to help them be good people. I want to show them that the teenage years may seem so very important.........the impression you make may seem important, but it is really doing the opposite of what everyone else expects/does that makes you a better person. I made my mistakes, but they were very minor. I don't really know what I am doing. Sometimes I feel lost. I just hope I do a better job of raising them than I feel like I'm doing.